Being done with the scene.
Being done with the social media circus, games, hoops,
rejection, BS, SOS, lack of interest,
no review, no interview interest,
making music that 99 percent of fickle passerby listeners don't get,
Being done with the goal of simply trying to find a few
people that give a damn..get it..appreciate it
after encountering 1000's and sharing and creating from the heart,
finding next to no interest.
Being aware to give up..stop investing time and passion
where you don't belong no matter how you've tried to embark on that world..that scene, those so called open minded music fans.
Being just another unknown band, musician...
when I am not just another unknown band..nor just a musician..
I'm an artist..and our society doesn't give two shits about art..or the art of expression..unless it is birthed into fame and fortune, normalcy, or can make someone money..or sounds like what they like..expect, think is the be all end all.
Bands at all levels ..from the local levels..don't really support each other. How can they when they are in competition..it's a bizness..
F the biz...It is BS...when the art can't even be appreciated online..and so many boast of LOVING to support artists play live...
GREAT..but the ART is about more than playing live...it's about the actual creation of the music..the colors..the sounds..the lyrics..the state of mind..the work that goes into the songs..the creativity.
Live should always be appreciated for the performance..
but it is the music that got you to a live stage.
To discount artists that make music at home..and are not able to become staples of their scene for the actual artistic content..is truly sad.

Being done with the masses.
Being done with sharing.
Focusing on Therapy, Music, Family..
Therapy aka- making music for me...
The end.

Another social musical creative artistic experiment has failed..
just like our society ..our world is failing..
not everything works for everyone..
and just because something works for many..
it doesn't work for all...
yet..we keep thinking the opposite of that..
"if you do what I did..you can reap the rewards too"
You walked to your car and drove to the store and bought some water..
Another person might have to walk 10 miles to the store, 113 degree heat..to get that same water you said was easy to get with the right effort..You drove dickhead....Not everyone lives 5 min drive from a store with a good selection of water bottles...but you keep thinking that anyone can be like you..and WIN..when you don't even know how hard others must work to get something simple accomplished ... It is a case by case scenario..many a time..and yet we keep trying to guilt people into being lesser than a superior confident person..because they weren't you..aren't you...End, the..end part II...
No more rambles...
Too much time and energy wasted on sharing music..thoughts..
when all it does is frighten off people..overwhelm..sound like lunacy to the many that simply don't have the time to even try and get it..